Who I Am AndWhy I Write

I WRITE BECAUSE IT’S’ A POWERFUL TOOL TO WORK OUT EMOTIONAL UPHEAVALS.

MY JOURNAL BEGAN WITH MY DEAR FRIEND, MY HIDING PLACE, FOR PRAYERS FOR MY HUSBAND, AND GUIDANCE FOR MYSELF. WRITING BECAME MORE THAN THAT. MY DEAR FRIEND READ OF MY UPS AND DOWNS, LISTENED WHEN I CRIED OUT AGAINST BLACK WAVES OF DARKNESS. BEYOND COPING, I BECAME EASY PREY TO DARKNESS. HE SHOWED UP WITH A LIFELINE COMMITTING TO HONOR YOU MUST BE BRAVE, AND I NEEDED ALL THE ARTILLERY I COULD MUSTER BECAUSE CANCER ASSAULTING MY HUSBAND BROKE MY HEART AND TESTED MY COURAGE.

I WRITE BECAUSE MY DEAR FRIEND, BETTER KNOWN AS THE HOLY SPIRIT, SPOKE SOFTLY WITH WORDS OF COMFORT, ENCOURAGEMENT, AND EXACTLY THE HELP WHEN I NEEDED IT MOST. HE WAS THE FEET ON THE GROUND WITH ME, WHO GUIDED AND GUARDED MY VULNERABLE EMOTIONS. I WRITE BECAUSE HE WAS AS GOOD AS HIS WORD TO BE MY ARMOR AGAINST ATTACKS OF DESPAIR THAT TRIED TO BRING ME DOWN. HIS PRESENCE NEVER LEFT ME DURING THE THREE-YEAR CANCER JOURNEY WITH MY HUSBAND.

I WRITE TO ENCOURAGE OTHERS WHO ARE CARING FOR A SPOUSE BATTLING CANCER. I RECOGNIZE THEY ALSO FACE THE AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER.

I WRITE TO TESTIFY TO GOD’S HELPING ME TO WALK THROUGH THE FIRE TO SUPPORT MY HUSBAND AND TO HONOR HIS ONE REQUEST, “YOU MUST BE BRAVE.”